breathe

Relationship

2010-07-09T16:22:00.002+08:00

The past few weeks has been trying to work on Vera to start a routine that will fit having CGM and Tues ldrs meet. She has to sleep by 730pm and hopefully not wake up at all cos cg will be from then till about 930-10pm which is time for her next feed. And with the praise and worship going on in the living room, Im not sure if she will be awaken. Hmm ...

Sometimes I have the feeling of being out of sight, out of mind.. so maybe its time to reconnect. Relationship precedes ministry. And relationship is what ministry is all about.

2010-06-24T20:22:00.003+08:00

Tzehui is having his school break and its such a joy to have a 'helper' at home! While he cares for Vera, I can catch up on my beloved sleep, do some reading and all. Its awesome! Managed to go on a date while getting my mom to help babysit. I did my facial while Thui had a massage. It was heavenly after missing it so long. :)

While Thui is around, we took Vera out even more. haha. went Bishan, Square2, Novena Sq, Orchard, Plaza Sing.. Now my gal likes going out! She sleeps well when the pram goes bump bump bump. Her routine seems a little messy nowsaday too since Thui is home. He likes to carry her and spends quality time staring at each other. So now, when she cries longer when we refused to carry her. haiz........ But well, I guess all will be well soon when Thui goes back to work next week. haha.

Vera is growing by the day. Weighing at 4.06kg now, she can return a smile and its really heart-warming. She also makes little 'noises' and its getter soo adorable. Im so in love with her! :D This is one of my favorite photo of her so far. She looks sooo innocent and cute!

My life NOW seems to only be filled with Vera. But guess this will soon end when I go back to work. I have many things I need to work on.. but meanwhile, I shall devote my time and energy to her. She will soon grow up and I know Ill miss these moments with her as a baby...

Outings with Vera

2010-06-10T17:57:00.002+08:00

Ever since the 1st month party is over, I've been eager to bring Vera out! :) And I realised it can be super tiring! Where has my shopping stamina gone to?? Argh! Ive to get it all back! hahaha

Vera is growing well. She is feeding and sleeping well. I am soooo proud of her. She is amazing. Every mom's dream girl. In fact she is sleeping through the night except for the much needed feed.

Brought her for vacination today. The paediatrician vaccine & GP's apparently are the same but the cost differs greatly!!! Hence Ive Vera done her developmental check (she is weighing at 3.72kg, 53.5cm in length with head circumference of 36.5cm) at the Children's Clinic by Dr Heng (Paediatrician) and her vaccine at My Family Clinic (GP) by Dr Goh. I must say Dr Goh is so gentle with her. Good looking too. And he is still single! haha Maybe I can pair him up with one of my N389 gals. :p

Tomorrow going on a date with hubby to TGIF. Looking forward to it! :) And also towards the upcoming Father's Day! It will be Tzehui's first. Bet he is excited. I can see the fatherly love in him as he holds and cuddles our little precious. But since he is normally back after work at about 8-9pm, thats about Vera's sleeping time too. Too much stimulation will bring no rest to us since she cant sleep well then. So he has to restrain himself from playing with her too much. As for me, Ive the whole day with her. Couldnt be more blessed. But she sleep alot also during the day. Moreover she is only a baby and cant play much yet. Looking forward to her growing up.

-continue-

2010-05-31T22:57:00.006+08:00

ok Im back.. continuation of ytd's post..

Btw, if you're wondering about my studies.. yes, Ive to intermit & continue next year. Hope Ill be able to catch up then! :p

Confinement for 1 month:

Ive my fair share of hearing all the old wives tales on not drinking DOM, not eating ginger, cant bath, cannot wash hair etc etc.. Well.. not sure what is true and whats not, I simply do what I felt was right! haha.. :p

The first few days was super tiring as Ive not gotten used to feeding every 2.5 to 3hrs. Well, its not really the lack of sleep but trying to wake my sleepyhead daughter up for her feed!! No matter what I do she refuses to wake up... so its a battle of her timing vs mine. And you are right, I do believe in PDF: Parent-directing-feed. Now she is on routine and I know the rough timing of her next feed w/o having to second guess if her cries at an odd hour meant hunger. This is one of my 1st achievement.. :) Now she is on total BF. :)

On 6 May her umbilical cord finally dropped! this made bathing her much simplier! :D

Her weight has also grew steadily for the past few weeks. On discharge, she weighed at 2720g and today at 3210g. Readings say 30g per day is healthy.

Chinese name

It was really not easy to give her a chinese name as hubby and my chinese is so not-to-standard! Those we chose either sound nice but had bad meaning or sound too common. However we finally settled with 陈芷琦 (Chen Zhi Qi). Her name is registered only as Vera Tan.

Jaundice

Well she is down with slight jaundice on 2nd wk of May. The next day happened to be my birthday & its my 1st Mother's Day too. I couldnt bear to leave her in hospital so hubby suggested we rent the light home & watch her instead. It was a great decision as it cost us much lesser and we were also able to have her stayed home with us.

Many friends also came down to give me a pleasant surprise. I was really touched.

29 May- 1st month Party

This day finally came and we had a great celebration. I was physically worn out but it was certainly a great time of catching up with friends and relatives after a 1 long month break! Vera also received many beautiful gifts.. Thanks to all the uncles & aunties!!

Back In Action

2010-05-31T21:42:00.004+08:00

Now that Im on confinement, Ive plenty of time when my gal is sleeping. So Im back to blogging. Hopefully will be on top of it regularly. :D

Hmm where shall I start?

From the time I realised Im pregnant.. Im elated of course, needless to say! Time passes slowly as I await for the delivery of my girl.. Here is some memorable quotes from my gynae- Dr CH Koh:

Me: (in the midst of doing the ultrascan) Is this the baby's heartbeat?

Gynae: Its the 2nd national anthem!

Gynae: (to me) From now onwards, you need to do finger, mouth exercise.

Me: huh? what do you mean?

Gynae: Since it is your hubby that got you into this problem, instruct him to sweep/mop the floor, wash the dishes, do the laundry...

(hubby gave a stone face & tries to smile. haha)

Me: (ultrascan) Isit a boy or girl?

Gynae: Start writing a 'M'

Me: O its a male! A boy?

Gynae: M for M-I-S-S! Its a girl!

Gynae: If baby comes out too early, it will cost you more. Have you heard the idiom 'zao-sen-gui-zi'!

And he got got my hubby to cut the umbilical cord and Shout: I AM A FATHER when baby is delivered!

On a more serious note, (in my viewpoint) a good gynae. Heard many good reviews about him also. Will certainly consider going back to him in future. :p

Moving on... my delivery day- 30 April 2010

Waterbag burst @ 10am ++. Jumped out of bed & stone for a minute or so. haha.. then called my hubby, the clinic and my sister. Had a quick bath and while changing, the water leaked/burst again. Argh. While waiting for my brother to fetch me to hospi, I mopped the bedroom wood flooring! YES, I MOPPED the floor! haha. (cant imagine what will happen to my flooring if I leave it soaked with water for hours!!!) Next, I flooded my bro's new car! :p (Sorry!)

Nurse checked on me & was told I only had 2cm dilation. So gotta wait for contractions. Ask for epidurals cos my back was hurting even thou I dint feel any contractions yet. Felt asleep after the jab and awake 4-5 hours later only to found out Ive dilated 8-9cm! Preparations were soon made for the delivery. 15mins of pushing & Vera was delivered at 2020hrs. NO LABOUR PAINS! Gynae said I had happi-dural & not epidural! haha.

ok feeding time now. update later...

Embarking on new grounds

2009-10-05T17:21:00.003+08:00

The past few weeks has been exciting for me.
I will be embarking in a few new stuffs in the coming year!
2010- A year of learning!!
Going back to school is one thing
learning about how to balance life is another
Also believing for the few new ministries to take flight!

Pray together with me and pray for me! Thanks!

What are you hearing?

2009-09-02T15:34:00.000+08:00

You think about what you watch,

listen to, read, write & speak.

This shapes our thinking.

Be careful what you hear!

Awesome!

Repentance

2009-09-02T12:56:00.002+08:00

When will we repent?

Perhaps only when we REALISE we are wrong
when Conviction sets in then will we repent

Again, repentance is a choice.
When we realise that we've sinned,
will we seek forgivness?

when much has sinned, much will be forgiven.

FORM

2009-08-18T19:03:00.002+08:00

What reflects our maturity??
1 Cor 13:11
- our speech
- our understanding
- out thoughts

What is my form?
(my outlook of life, my behaviour, my ways)
-> isit of this world or isit shaped according to the WOG

Rom 12:2
Do not be conform to this world BUT
be transformed in the image & likeness of GOD!

A heart after You

2009-08-18T18:59:00.002+08:00

What does having a heart after God means?
- one without mixtures
- 100% for God

Its easy to say I will be 100% for Him
BUT its not easy to act out 100%
even our Lord Jesus was tempted in this area
But 1 Cor 10:13:-
"...with every temptation, there is a way of escape.."

Not as I will, but according to Your will
Not as my soul desires, but according to the Spirit

360 degrees

2009-07-22T17:20:00.002+08:00

Being a 360 degrees leader would mean:
-using 5% of our capability to influence Down
-using 20% of our capability to influence Lateral
-using 25% of our capability to influence Up
-using 50% of our capability to influence Self

WE only influence others when we 1st influence SELF

Unfaithfulness

2009-06-26T17:24:00.002+08:00

Saul - the King of Israel
Did he died because of his wickedness?
Was it becos he sought to kill David- God's Anointed
The answer is NO

1Chron 10:13
So Saul died for his unfaithfulness..
because he did not keep the word of the Lord..
also becos he consulted a medium for guidance.
(lack of trust in the Lord)

----------------------------------Selah---

Smile

2009-06-14T16:04:00.001+08:00

it costs nothing but produces much,
it enriches those who receive it
without impoverishing those who give it,
it happens in a flash yet the memory of it
can last forever,
none are so rich they can get along without it
none are so poor they are not richer for its benefits
it brings ease to the fearful
fosters goodwill amongst strangers
and is the countersign of friends,
yet it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen,
for it is something that has no earthly good at all
until it is given away,
and no one needs one as much as those who have
none left to give!

Ceilings

2009-05-31T22:45:00.002+08:00

when we're beyond our capacity,
we hit our ceilings..
its like the dashboard of a car
are we overheating? battery low?

dont just get a 'quick fix'
a rush charge will destroy the battery
get a good rest.. get your Sabbath!

those who wait on the Lord shall
renew their strength..

come aside and rest a while
Get fuel up! Not a quarter or half tank
Get filled to the brim- Full tank!

Now you are really to go on Full gear!

Vrooooooooooooooooom...

Sunshine after Rain

2009-05-20T14:46:00.003+08:00

A bondservant is a "love slave"
-one who willingly serve & giving 100%
-rights totally surrendered
-an attitude of total obedience

Our Vocation
Our Calling
being in the right place at the right time allows
-the anointing to flow
-fruits to be bear forth

Being Faithful and separated
Wholehearted dedication
When we have too many divided interests
we are unable to fully commit to the One cause

Separation from:
* our comfort zone
* our past
* what we felt is our responsibilities
* past mistakes
* our love, pride & joy

These separation brings more meaning to e reunion!
I believe in sunshine after rain!

Wrestling

2009-05-11T13:32:00.002+08:00

So often we get offended by others
we wrestle with them
and seek to 'win' them
BUT
the making of a great leader is learning
mastery over our own spirit!
the man/woman within is the
greatest mountain we face which
without rule, we become internally dysfunctional

this wrestle is a daily affair
disciplines make us disciples
so that we become larger and bigger
than our natural responses.. (selah)

Let's rule our spirit today!

vision

2009-05-08T00:21:00.002+08:00

when you have to lay down the rules all
the time you know people have not caught
the dreams..

Bones

2009-05-06T13:12:00.002+08:00

There are various bones..
Wishbones.. wishing others to do the work
Jawbones.. only engaging in endless talk
Knucklebones.. knocking over other's work
Backbones.. the ones that are actually at work!

Tortoise

2009-05-06T13:09:00.001+08:00

Behold the tortoise!
They progress only when they
stick their heads out!!

Lets have a world-view of things!
Lets move on!
Lets progress & breakthrough!

the Bigger Picture

2009-05-03T01:39:00.002+08:00

Enlarge my heart to see and to understand
the Bigger Picture
There is something more to what I see
There is something more to what I hear
Very often, we only see things on the surface
we missed out the purpose of the bigger picture
I need to open my eyes to see
I need to open my heart to understand
I need to tune in my ears to hear

Give your best shot in every situation
cos you are part of the greater purpose!

Cats!

2009-05-02T12:57:00.001+08:00

breathe

2009-04-30T11:41:00.004+08:00

i need to breathe
i need fresh air
drugs sedating me
this is no good

breaking out
i need to come out
this is what i need to do
BREATHE

Freedom

2009-04-24T18:43:00.002+08:00

this is what i'm living for
its the best thing in life
some died for it and some live for it
be free . relax . be real
simply enjoy. simply have fun
simply be yourself

check out www.jolzone.blogspot.com

a grateful heart

2009-04-21T00:14:00.001+08:00

discipleship

2009-04-17T08:55:00.002+08:00

you have not just heard
you have act upon what you hear
and when you see the fruits
you know it was bcos you had digest it
it was bcos you had chew and meditate on it
awesome work friend!

I m glad to hear of your harvest
and more glad to know you've been discipled
you've caught the vision
you've understood and you are running
not stopping but running, with me and the rest!
Awesome!

thanks for making my day!

www.jolzone.blogspot.com

2009-04-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

Priority

2009-04-14T18:41:00.002+08:00

What is my priority?
Am I adjusting my life around this priority?
How much value am I putting on it?
Is it taking most of my time?
Is it consuming my mind?
Am I employing resources to fulfil this goal?
Am I focus and putting all effort for this cause?
Is my heart burning at the mention of it?

Yes, YOU are worth it!

Self Examination

2009-04-14T12:03:00.002+08:00

Its easy to be critical..
Easy to be hasty in judging BUT lets CHOOSE to
specialize in self examination, not cross examination

--with the same measure you use,
it will be measured back to you--

Greatness

2009-04-13T19:03:00.003+08:00

A man wrapped up in himself makes a very small package.
Greatness is found in us having a big heart
When we learn to see the whole world
we also experience greatness in its fullness

Easter!

2009-04-12T10:47:00.002+08:00

Awesome Day of Breakthrough!
This is the Day of Ressurection
Day for a New Beginning
Day for a brand new start
Day to say 'I can' again
Day to forget the past and move forward
Day to having Hope in life itself
Day for growth & increase
Day to ARISE from the dead and lifeless!!!

Thank you Lord for ressurecting!!

Habits

2009-04-07T12:12:00.002+08:00

we see a men' character by observing his daily habits
what we do in the private will be seen in the public
what we have been doing all these while;
we are to continue doing in times of stress & pressures

it takes 3 wks to kick a habit and
another 3 wks to form a new one;
get rid of the old man and
embrace fully the new creation
the HS relates only to the NEW U!
--selah---

Define your own Limits!

2009-04-06T13:39:00.000+08:00

Leadership

2009-04-06T11:21:00.005+08:00

Leadership is problem solving
All is well when you come to his stop
He makes things happen
Work things around
Solve the situation
There's a direction, an instruction when u meet the leader

Leadership is like a Magnet;
aligning everyone in the same flow, the same way

Delegation

2009-04-05T23:55:00.002+08:00

giving away what you like doing
this sounds really difficult
but this will help you become a better person
becos you Empower another
to be just as good as you are, if not better

whats more, you got to learn to Trust
to believe that the job will get done
(but not by you)

and you will learn to share credit
to believe and rejoice with them
this will give a whole new meaning to their lives,
and to yours as well!

Attitude

2009-04-04T12:24:00.002+08:00

Its often heard and said that our attitude determines our altitude
each time i have a right learning attitude, i catch something in the spiritual realm
each time im being corrected i download the DNA of the leader/'corrector' im submitted to
each time i position myself to be taught, i learn something new
so the best way to learn is to teach others while maintaining an attitude to learn

Fight!

2009-04-03T10:09:00.006+08:00

Exo 17:9
... Choose us some men that will go out and fight...

having fighters on board is crucial for a team
when i fight, i know you will fight with me, not war against me
when i choose you, i know you will choose others of like-mindedness
when we are all fighters, we will conquer and we will win

Stand in line for the Lord Almighty
Stand in line for His servants, the Pastors & leaders
Stand in line for the Church

Shield, cover and protect by:
- speaking well of them
- praying for them regularly
- carrying and running the same vision

Thanks JOL for being fighters! You guys RockS!

Maximise your Life!

2009-04-02T17:18:00.002+08:00

so how do one exactly maximises his/her life?
by taking up responsibilities!
when we assume responsibilities, we enlarge our capacity to do things
we try things that we've not done before
the more things we take on hand, the more our life is maximised

if i take up the responsibility of a teacher, i have to prepare notes and myself
if i take up the responsibility of a counselor, i have to exercise my patience
if i take up the responsibility of a writer, i have to read broadly
if i take up the responsibility of a soul winner, i have to start engaging everyone
if i take up the responsibility of being a christian, i have to start being Christ-like

responsilities maximises our lives!

Learning Process

2009-04-01T16:57:00.003+08:00

the best way to learn is when we teach others
i pray more when i have to teach on prayer
i check on my own attitudes when i teach on the topic of having great attitudes
i have to love more when the next bs topic speaks on love
i start being generous when ive to challenge others to give their best

so start teaching someone today and your life will be mightily blessed
indeed we get what we sow
thank you lord

Sentosa!

2009-03-26T16:05:00.000+08:00

2009

2009-01-12T15:36:00.007+08:00

Its Already 2009!
Time really slips us by..
There is so much to do and so much to accomplish in this new year.
Im going to make this year count!
Ive to plan. Work on it & see fruits!
Started the year well with the Korea trip
It was indeed an eye-opening for my spiritual eyes
Im more challenged and motivated to pray
To pray with more fervency is the key point

Yoiddo Full Gospel Church 24000 pack for prayer at 330am (SG time)

Good Korean BBQ

Haha.. the delicious street spicy cakes.. =)

Christmas Party with Special Friends

2008-12-29T00:16:00.000+08:00

10282- WELL DONE

2008-12-12T01:14:00.006+08:00

I m so proud of you for having completed 42km! :)

Religion- a bad thing

2008-12-05T14:07:00.003+08:00

It seems odd to have to say so, but too much religion is a bad thing.

We cant get too much of God, cant get too much faith and obedience,

cant get too much love and worship.

But religion- the well- intentioned efforts we make to "get it all together" for God--can very well get in the way of what God is doing for us.

The main and central action is everywhere and always what God has done,

is doing, and will do for us. Jesus is the revelation of that action.

Our main and central task is to live in responsive obedience to God's action

revealed in Jesus.

Our part in the action is the act of faith.

And this is ENOUGH!!!

My Future

2008-12-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

The way we conceive the future sculpts the present,

gives contour and tone to nearly every action and thought through the day.

If our sense of future is weak,

we live listlessly.

Do you have a sense of your future?

Much emothional and mental illness and most suicides

occur among men and women who feel that they "have no future."

Asia Conference

2008-11-25T14:26:00.000+08:00

Its had been more than Awesome experience!

thought provoking, heart pounding and values,beliefs challenged...

Here's a few thoughts for you to ponder on..

we use 5% of our capabilities when we influence downwards

we use 20% of our capabilities when we influence lateral (to our peers)

we use 25% of our capabilities when we influence upwards

we use 50% of our capabilities when we influence inwards (ie ourselves!)

1st, 2nd, 3rd space

Spiritual Hunger

Im a Social Architect!

Love. Relationship precede ministry

Separation vs Isolation

Insulate & Penetrate

(Insulate thru' Discipleship)

(Penetrate thru' Practical Love)

Meternoia

Actively Seeking New Jerusalem

Judgement of purification

Reconcilation & Redemption

Competition for souls is the Culture!

Money,Power,Fame

S.O.B

Work

To be saved FOR you

Theory of Place and Person

Morning Prayers

2008-11-17T14:46:00.000+08:00

Thanks JOL cgls & helpers!

You guys are the most awesome

Willingness and sacrificial

Waking up early in the morning to pray

for every single one of your members

BEST CGLS!!!

Lets believe for growth & breakthrough together!

We can do it through prayers!

Interesting findings

2008-11-10T11:40:00.000+08:00

When christian believers gather in churches, everything that can go wrong sooner or later does. Outsiders, on observing this, conclude that there is nothing to the religion business except, perhaps, business - and dishonest business at that. Insiders see it differently. Just as a hospital collects the sick under one roof and labels them as such, the church collects sinners. Many of the people outside the hospital are every bit as sick as the ones inside, but their illnesses are either undiagnosed or disguised. It's similiar with sinners outside the church. So Christian churches are not, as a rule, model ommunities of good behavior. They are, rather, places where human misbehavior is brought out in the open, faced, and dealt with.

Wisdom

2008-11-10T11:11:00.000+08:00

I chanced upon this..

Do you want to be counted wise, to bild a reputation for wisdom? Here's what you do: Live well, live wisely, live humbly. It's the way you live, not the way you talk, that counts. Mean-spirited ambition isn't wisdom. Boasting that you are wise isn't wisdom. Twisting the truth to make yourselves sound wise isn't wisdom. It's the furthest thing from wisdom-- it's animal cunning, devilish conniving.

Real wisdom, God's wisdom, begins with a holy life and is characterized by getting along with others. (WOW this makes me ponder!) It is gentle and reasonable, overflowing with mercy and blessings, not hot one day and cold the next day, not two-faced. You can develop a healthy, robust community that lives right with God and enjoy its results only if you do the hard work of getting along with each other, treating each other with dignity and honor.

Prayer is always the foundational to Wisdom.

to my old friend...

2008-11-08T11:55:00.001+08:00

My belief (in Him ) has brought me:

Love

Joy

Peace

Friends

Destiny

Good health

Prosperity

Vision..

the list goes on.

What has your Unbelief brought you?

I pray you will only believe.

Blessed is he who believes in the Lord Jesus!

Sofa for Sale..

2008-11-08T11:42:00.000+08:00

L220cm, D85cm, H55cm/95cm

In super good condition. Bought for only 3 months and rarely used.

Christmas

2008-11-08T11:36:00.000+08:00

Christmas is just round the corner and Im getting really excited!

ever had chow kway tiao/ carrot cake and sorts for christmas?

i probably will have them this year!

Ooooo.. or eeeeeeeeeek?

Will check that out!

NEW Things!

2008-11-05T10:07:00.000+08:00

New things are about to begin!!!

New relationships

New records

New life

New sermons

New mindset

New visions & dreams

NEW NEW NEW

All is new including my phone!

yahooooooooooooooooo...

say it (NOT) again

2008-10-31T17:16:00.000+08:00

will you please say it again

the words that were meant to be unspoken

expressed them in an unaudible voice

for they are deadly words

to the weak in heart

the prints that were left

cos he does not have a father

u are not on my priority list

dream on

harlot they call her

could you be more courteous

Not again what is the problem now?

Reminiscing the good old days..

2008-10-30T13:26:00.000+08:00

Arise & Build

2008-10-29T18:14:00.001+08:00

Its this time once again

Arise & Build 2008 is finally here

Unequal amount, Equal sacricife

Willing heart

Obedience

Jehovah Jireh-My Provider

El Shaddai- The God of more than enough

I m looking forward to 31 Oct.

The A&B Eve.

Something special is coming my way!

Be Strong

2008-10-28T18:30:00.000+08:00

No matter what happens.. Just be Strong!

You can get over this.. No matter how long it takes.

Yes, TIME can heal all wounds.

We are always here with you..

Things will work out Good for those who loves God!

Courageous W

2008-10-25T01:01:00.001+08:00

Thank you for being so courageous!

I am sooo proud of you, my friend.

I am so glad you called, and we catched up!

I am so touched when you said its all Well. Its Alright!

So, thank you for being so brave, so strong, so full of faith!

When I told you to trust Him, to keep believing Him..

I was telling that to myself also..

Dont give up!

The miracle is on the way!

Lets JIAYOU together friend!

All will be well & Straight!!! =)

Wish List- UPDATES! (was told this shld be a shopping list instead of a wish list!) lol

2008-10-21T11:07:00.000+08:00

Materially...
1) Auto Floor Cleaning Robot (that saves on electricity) maybe Swivel Sweeper is better! (BHS/OG/Robinson) --> decided to save up 1st for the robot instead so i dont have to do the work'!
2) A new phone! NOKIA E71?? (influnced by KKL & Joy) --> Bought Samsung i780!
3) A new Bible (The Message Bible!) --> bought & love it!
4) High Bar Stool from IKEA --> Bought!
5) Lap Top Table from IKEA --> Bought!
6) Candy Box in my office so I can snack! --> Bought except the snacks! haha
7) Beautiful nice house slippers
8) New shoes.. flats or heels are all welcome! --> Got in JB. ;p
9) NICE hangbag size practical 2009 Diary! ------>Blessed! THANKS to Meiyi!
10) Nice tall covered Dustbin for my kitchen --> Bought!
11) Big Beanbags! Anyone knows where to get? --> Bought!

***just realised I bought things almost as fast as I wish for them!!!!!

Jeremy Johny Kew

2008-10-06T12:07:00.000+08:00

To my friend Jeremy,

I send my Condolences...
shocked, puzzled is my 1st response.. it makes me rethink about Life itself.

This is the 2nd similiar case of my ex members' death that Ive heard this year.

Lord, I pray their blood would not be found on my hands.

I prayed Ive followed through enough
I prayed Ive love them all the way
I prayed Ive pressed on and not let them go
I prayed Ive ... the list goes on...

Selah.. living a life of regret...

Watchman.. that's what Im supposed to be

Indeed a heavy burden to be a leader..

Lord, I ask for Your grace
I desperately need it
Tons and tons of it

Watch my path and guide me on
Lest I be proud and use my own strength
Teach me how to lead these people
Teach us to walk in Your ways & in Your statures
Teach us to love You till the end

Dragon Boating

2008-10-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

hmm today's event was really quite something. tot the rain will keep us away

but while driving along... we finally saw the SUN!!!

then the weather got really hot and im kinda burnt now..haha
(btw, i wasnt even on the boat!)

I was lazing around taking photos of the beautiful skyline.

now tired and burnt. sleepy.

The Sin of Unbelief

2008-10-03T21:48:00.000+08:00

The Sin of Unbelief

A Sermon
(No. 3)
Delivered on Sabbath Morning, January 14, 1855, by the
REV. C. H. Spurgeon
At New Park Street Chapel, Southwark.

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"And that lord answered the man of God, and said, Now, behold, if the Lord should make windows in heaven, might such a thing be? And he said, Behold, thou shalt see it with thine eyes but shalt not eat thereof"—2 Kings 7:19.

ONE WISE man may deliver a whole city; one good man may be the means of safety to a thousand others. The holy ones are "the salt of the earth," the means of the preservation of the wicked. Without the godly as a conserve, the race would be utterly destroyed. In the city of Samaria there was one righteous man—Elisha, the servant of the Lord. Piety was altogether extinct in the court. The king was a sinner of the blackest dye, his iniquity was glaring and infamous. Jehoram walked in the ways of his father Ahab, and made unto himself false gods. The people of Samaria were fallen like their monarch: they had gone astray from Jehovah; they had forsaken the God of Israel; they remembered not the watchword of Jacob, "The Lord thy God is one God;" and in wicked idolatry they bowed before the idols of the heathens, and therefore the Lord of Hosts suffered their enemies to oppress them until the curse of Ebal was fulfilled in the streets of Samaria, for "the tender and delicate woman who would not adventure to set the sole of her foot upon the ground for delicateness," had an evil eye to her own children, and devoured her offspring by reason of fierce hunger (Deut 28:56-58). In this awful extremity the one holy man was the medium of salvation. The one grain of salt preserved the entire city; the one warrior for God was the means of the deliverance of the whole beleaguered multitude. For Elisha's sake the Lord sent the promise that the next day, food which could not be obtained at any price, should be had at the cheapest possible rate—at the very gates of Samaria. We may picture the joy of the multitude when first the seer uttered this prediction. They knew him to be a prophet of the Lord; he had divine credentials; all his past prophecies had been fulfilled. They knew that he was a man sent of God, and uttering Jehovah's message. Surely the monarch's eyes would glisten with delight, and the emaciated multitude would leap for joy at the prospects of so speedy a release from famine. "To-morrow," would they shout, "to-morrow our hunger shall be over, and we shall feast to the full."
However, the lord on whom the king leaned expressed his disbelief. We hear not that any of the common people, the plebeians, ever did so; but an aristocrat did it. Strange it is, that God has seldom chosen the great men of this world. High places and faith in Christ do seldom well agree. This great man said, "Impossible!" and, with an insult to the prophet, he added, "If the Lord should make windows in heaven, might such a thing be." His sin lay in the fact, that after repeated seals of Elisha's ministry, he yet disbelieved the assurances uttered by the prophet on God's behalf. He had, doubtless, seen the marvelous defeat of Moab; he had been startled at tidings of the resurrection of the Shunamite's son; he knew that Elisha had revealed Benhadad's secrets and smitten his marauding hosts with blindness; he had seen the bands of Syria decoyed into the heart of Samaria; and he probably knew the story of the widow, whose oil filled all the vessels, and redeemed her sons; at all events the cure of Naaman was common conversation at court; and yet, in the face of all this accumulated evidence, in the teeth of all these credentials of the prophet's mission, he yet doubted, and insultingly told him that heaven must become an open casement, ere the promise could be performed. Whereupon God pronounced his doom by the mouth of the man who had just now proclaimed the promise: "thou shalt see it with thine eyes, but shalt not eat thereof." And providence—which always fulfills prophecy, just as the paper takes the stamp of the type—destroyed the man. Trodden down in the streets of Samaria, he perished at its gates, beholding the plenty, but tasting not of it. Perhaps his carriage was haughty, and insulting to the people; or he tried to restrain their eager rush; or, as we would say, it might have been by mere accident that he was crushed to death; so that he saw the prophecy fulfilled, but never lived to enjoy it. In his case, seeing was believing, but it was not enjoying.

I shall this morning invite your attention to two things—the man's sin and his punishment. Perhaps I shall say but little of this man, since I have detailed the circumstances, but I shall discourse upon the sin of unbelief and the punishment thereof.

I. And first, the SIN.
His sin was unbelief. He doubted the promise of God. In this particular case unbelief took the form of a doubt of the divine veracity, or a mistrust of God's power. Either he doubted whether God really meant what he said, or whether it was within the range of possibility that God should fulfill his promise. Unbelief hath more phases than the moon, and more colors than the chameleon. Common people say of the devil, that he is seen sometimes in one shape, and sometimes in another. I am sure this is true of Satan's first-born child—unbelief, for its forms are legion. At one time I see unbelief dressed out as an angel of light. It calls itself humility, and it saith, "I would not be presumptuous; I dare not think that God would pardon me; I am too great a sinner." We call that humility, and thank God that our friend is in so good a condition. I do not thank God for any such delusion. It is the devil dressed as an angel of light; it is unbelief after all. At other times we detect unbelief in the shape of a doubt of God's immutability: "The Lord has loved me, but perhaps he will cast me off to-morrow. He helped me yesterday, and under the shadows of his wings I trust; but perhaps I shall receive no help in the next affliction. He may have cast me off; he may be unmindful of his covenant, and forget to be gracious." Sometimes this infidelity is embodied in a doubt of God's power. We see every day new straits, we are involved in a net of difficulties, and we think "surely the Lord cannot deliver us." We strive to get rid of our burden, and finding that we cannot do it, we think God's arm is as short as ours, and his power as little as human might. A fearful form of unbelief is that doubt which keeps men from coming to Christ; which leads the sinner to distrust the ability of Christ to save him, to doubt the willingness of Jesus to accept so great a transgressor. But the most hideous of all is the traitor, in its true colors, blaspheming God, and madly denying his existence. Infidelity, deism, and atheism, are the ripe fruits of this pernicious tree; they are the most terrific eruptions of the volcano of unbelief. Unbelief hath become of full stature, when quitting the mask and laying aside disguise, it profanely stalks the earth, uttering the rebellious cry, "No God," striving in vain to shake the throne of the divinity, by lifting up its arm against Jehovah, and in its arrogance would

"Snatch from his hand the balance and the rod,
Re-judge his justice—be the god of God."

Then truly unbelief has come to its full perfection, and then you see what it really is, for the least unbelief is of the same nature as the greatest.
I am astonished, and I am sure you will be, when I tell you that there are some strange people in the world who do not believe that unbelief is a sin. Strange people I must call them, because they are sound in their faith in every other respect; only, to make the articles of their creed consistent, as they imagine, they deny that unbelief is sinful. I remember a young man going into a circle of friends and ministers, who were disputing whether it was a sin in men that they did not believe the gospel. Whilst they were discussing it, he said, "Gentlemen am I in the presence of Christians? Are you believers in the Bible, or are you not?" They said, "We are Christians of course." "Then," said he, "does not the Scripture say, 'of sin, because they believed not on me?' And is it not the damning sin of sinners, that they do not believe on Christ?" I could not have thought that persons should be so fool-hardy as to venture to assert that, "it is no sin for a sinner not to believe on Christ." I thought that, however far they might wish to push their sentiments, they would not tell a lie to uphold the truth, and, in my opinion this is what such men are really doing. Truth is a strong tower and never requires to be buttressed with error. God's Word will stand against all man's devices. I would never invent a sophism to prove that it is no sin on the part of the ungodly not to believe, for I am sure it is, when I am taught in the Scriptures that, "This is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men love darkness rather than light," and when I read, "He that believeth not is condemned already, because he believeth not on the Son of God," I affirm, and the Word declares it, unbelief is a sin. Surely with rational and unprejudiced persons, it cannot require any reasoning to prove it. Is it not a sin for a creature to doubt the word of its Maker? Is it not a crime and an insult to the Divinity, for me, an atom, a particle of dust, to dare to deny his words? Is it not the very summit of arrogance and extremity of pride for a son of Adam to say, even in his heart, "God I doubt thy grace; God I doubt thy love; God I doubt thy power?" Oh! sirs believe me, could ye roll all sins into one mass,—could you take murder, and blasphemy, and lust, adultery, and fornication, and everything that is vile and unite them all into one vast globe of black corruption, they would not equal even then the sin of unbelief. This is the monarch sin, the quintessence of guilt; the mixture of the venom of all crimes; the dregs of the wine of Gomorrah; it is the A1 sin, the master-piece of Satan, the chief work of the devil.

I shall attempt this morning, for a little while, to shew the extremely evil nature of the sin of unbelief.
1. And first the sin of unbelief will appear to be extremely heinous when we remember that it is the parent of every other iniquity. There is no crime which unbelief will not beget. I think that the fall of man is very much owing to it. It was in this point that the devil tempted Eve. He said to her, "Yea, hath God said, ye shall not eat of every tree of the garden?" He whispered and insinuated a doubt, "Yea, hath God said so?" as much as to say, "Are you quite sure he said so?" It was by means of unbelief—that thin part of the wedge—that the other sin entered; curiosity and the rest followed; she touched the fruit, and destruction came into this world. Since that time, unbelief has been the prolific parent of all guilt. An unbeliever is capable of the vilest crime that ever was committed. Unbelief, sirs! why it hardened the heart of Pharaoh—it gave license to the tongue of blaspheming Rabshaket—yea, it became a deicide, and murdered Jesus. Unbelief!—it has sharpened the knife of the suicide! it has mixed many a cup of poison; thousands it has brought to the halter; and many to a shameful grave, who have murdered themselves and rushed with bloody hands before their Creator's tribunal, because of unbelief. Give me an unbeliever—let me know that he doubts God's word—let me know that he distrusts his promise and his threatening; and with that for a premise, I will conclude that the man shall, by-and-bye unless there is amazing restraining power exerted upon him, be guilty of the foulest and blackest crimes. Ah! this is a Beelzebub sin; like Beelzebub, it is the leader of all evil spirits. It is said of Jeroboam that he sinned and made Israel to sin; and it may be said of unbelief that it not only sins itself, but makes others sin; it is the egg of all crime, the seed of every offence; in fact everything that is evil and vile lies couched in that one word—unbelief.
And let me say here, that unbelief in the Christian is of the self-same nature as unbelief in the sinner. It is not the same in its final issue, for it will be pardoned in the Christian; yea it is pardoned: it was laid upon the scapegoat's head of old: it was blotted out and atoned for; but it is of the same sinful nature. In fact, if there can be one sin more heinous than the unbelief of a sinner, it is the unbelief of a saint. For a saint to doubt God's word—for a saint to distrust God after innumerable instances of his love, after ten thousand proofs of his mercy, exceeds everything. In a saint, moreover, unbelief is the root of other sins. When I am perfect in faith, I shall be perfect in everything else; I should always fulfill the precept if I always believed the promise. But it is because my faith is weak, that I sin. Put me in trouble, and if I can fold my arms and say, "Jehovah-Jireh, the Lord will provide," you will not find me using wrong means to escape from it. But let me be in temporal distress and difficulty; if I distrust God, what then? Perhaps I shall steal, or do a dishonest act to get out of the hands of my creditors; or if kept from such a transgression, I may plunge into excess to drown my anxieties. Once take away faith, the reins are broken; and who can ride an unbroken steed without rein or bridle? Like the chariot of the sun, with Phaeton for its driver, such should we be without faith. Unbelief is the mother of vice; it is the parent of sin; and, therefore, I say it is a pestilent evil—a master sin.
2. But secondly; unbelief not only begets, but fosters sin. How is it that men can keep their sin under the thunders of the Sinai preacher? How is it that, when Boanerges stands in the pulpit, and, by the grace of God, cries aloud, "Cursed is every man that keepeth not all the commands of the law,"—how is it that when the sinner hears the tremendous threatenings of God's justice, still he is hardened, and walks on in his evil ways? I will tell you; it is because unbelief of that threatening prevents it from having any effect upon him. When our sappers and miners go to work around Sebastopol, they could not work in front of the walls, if they had not something to keep off the shots; so they raise earthworks, behind which they can do what they please. So with the ungodly man. The devil gives him unbelief; he thus puts up an earthwork, and finds refuge behind it. Ah! sinners, when once the Holy Ghost knocks down your unbelief—when once he brings home the truth in demonstration and in power, how the law will work upon your soul. If man did but believe that the law is holy, that the commandments are holy, just, and good, how he would be shaken over hell's mouth; there would be no sitting and sleeping in God's house; no careless hearers; no going away and straightway forgetting what manner of men ye are. Oh! once get rid of unbelief, how would ever ball from the batteries of the law fall upon the sinner, and the slain of the Lord would be many. Again, how is it that men can hear the wooing of the cross of Calvary, and yet come not to Christ? How is it that when we preach about the sufferings of Jesus, and close up by saying, "yet there is room,"—how is it that when we dwell upon his cross and passion, men are not broken in their hearts? It is said,

"Law and terrors do but harden,
All the while they work alone:
But a sense of blood-bought pardon
Will dissolve a heart of stone."

Methinks the tale of Calvary is enough to break a rock. Rocks did rend when they saw Jesus die. Methinks the tragedy of Golgotha is enough to make a flint gush with tears, and to make the most hardened wretch weep out his eyes in drops of penitential love; but yet we tell it you, and repeat it oft, but who weeps over it? Who cares about it? Sirs, ye sit as unconcerned as if it did not signify to you. Oh! behold and see all ye that pass by. Is it nothing to you that Jesus should die? Ye seem to say "It is nothing." What is the reason? Because there is unbelief between you and the cross. If there were not that thick veil between you and the Saviour's eyes, his looks of love would melt you. But unbelief is the sin which keeps the power of the gospel from working in the sinner: and it is not till the Holy Ghost strikes that unbelief out—it is not till the Holy Spirit rends away that infidelity and takes it altogether down, that we can find the sinner coming to put his trust in Jesus.
3. But there is a third point. Unbelief disables a man for the performance of any good work. "Whatsoever is not of faith is sin," is a great truth in more senses than one. "Without faith it is impossible to please God." You shall never hear me say a word against morality; you shall never hear me say that honesty is not a good thing, or that sobriety is not a good thing; on the contrary, I would say they are commendable things; but I will tell you what I will say afterwards—I will tell you that they are just like the cowries of Hindostan; they may pass current among the Indians, but they will not do in England; these virtues may be current here below, but not above. If you have not something better than your own goodness, you will never get to heaven. Some of the Indian tribes use little strips of cloth instead of money, and I would not find fault with them if I lived there; but when I come to England, strips of cloth will not suffice. So honesty, sobriety, and such things, may be very good amongst men—and the more you have of them the better. I exhort you, whatsoever things are lovely and pure, and of good report, have them—but they will not do up there. All these things put together, without faith, do not please God. Virtues without faith are whitewashed sins. Obedience without faith, if it is possible, is a gilded disobedience. Not to believe, nullifies everything. It is the fly in the ointment; it is the poison in the pot. Without faith, with all the virtues of purity, with all the benevolence of philanthropy, with all the kindness of disinterested sympathy, with all the talents of genius, with all the bravery of patriotism, and with all the decision of principle—"without faith it is impossible to please God." Do you not see then, how bad unbelief is, because it prevents men from performing good works. Yea, even in Christians themselves, unbelief disables them. Let me just tell you a tale—a story of Christ's life. A certain man had an afflicted son, possessed with an evil spirit. Jesus was up in Mount Tabor, transfigured; so the father brought his son to the disciples. What did the disciples do? They said, "Oh, we will cast him out." They put their hands upon him, and they tried to do it; but they whispered among themselves and said, "We are afraid we shall not be able." By-and-by the diseased man began to froth at the mouth; he foamed and scratched the earth, clasping it in his paroxysms. The demoniac spirit within him was alive. The devil was still there. In vain their repeated exorcism, the evil spirit remained like a lion in his den, nor could their efforts dislodge him. "Go!" said they; but he went not. "Away to the pit!" they cried; but he remained immoveable. The lips of unbelief cannot affright the Evil One, who might well have said, "Faith I know, Jesus I know, but who are ye? ye have no faith." If they had faith, as a grain of mustard seed, they might have cast the devil out; but their faith was gone, and therefore they could do nothing. Look at poor Peter's case, too. While he had faith, Peter walked on the waves of the sea. That was a splendid walk; I almost envy him treading upon the billows. Why, if Peter's faith had continued, he might have walked across the Atlantic to America. But presently there came a billow behind him, and he said, "That will sweep me away;" and then another before, and he cried out, "That will overwhelm me;" and he thought—how could I be so presumptuous as to be walking on the top of these waves? Down goes Peter. Faith was Peter's life-buoy; faith was Peter's charm—it kept him up; but unbelief sent him down. Do you know that you and I, all our lifetime, will have to walk on the water? A Christian's life is always walking on water—mine is—and every wave would swallow and devour him, but faith makes him stand. The moment you cease to believe, that moment distress comes in, and down you go. Oh! wherefore dost thou doubt, then?
Faith fosters every virtue; unbelief murders every one. Thousands of prayers have been strangled in their infancy by unbelief. Unbelief has been guilty of infanticide; it has murdered many an infant petition; many a song of praise that would have swelled the chorus of the skies, has been stifled by an unbelieving murmur; many a noble enterprise conceived in the heart has been blighted ere it could come forth, by unbelief. Many a man would have been a missionary; would have stood and preached his Master's gospel boldly; but he had unbelief. Once make a giant unbelieving, and he becomes a dwarf. Faith is the Samsonian lock of the Christian; cut it off, and you may put out his eyes—and he can do nothing.
4. Our next remark is— unbelief has been severely punished. Turn you to the Scriptures! I see a world all fair and beautiful; its mountains laughing in the sun, and the fields rejoicing in the golden light. I see maidens dancing, and young men singing. How fair the vision! But lo! a grave and reverend sire lifts up his hand, and cries, "A flood is coming to deluge the earth: the fountains of the great deep will be broken up, and all things will be covered. See yonder ark! One hundred and twenty years have I toiled with these my hands to build it; flee there, and you are safe." "Aha! old man; away with your empty predictions! Aha! let us be happy while we may! when the flood comes, then we will build an ark; but there is no flood coming; tell that to fools; we believe no such things." See the unbelievers pursue their merry dance. Hark! Unbeliever. Dost thou not hear that rumbling noise? Earth's bowels have begun to move, her rocky ribs are strained by dire convulsions from within; lo! they break with the enormous strain, and forth from between them torrents rush unknown since God concealed them in the bosom of our world. Heaven is split in sunder! it rains. Not drops, but clouds descend. A cataract, like that of old Niagara, rolls from heaven with mighty noise. Both firmaments, both deeps—the deep below and deep above—do clasp their hands. Now unbelievers, where are you now! There is your last remnant. A man—his wife clasping him round the waist—stands on the last summit that is above the water. See him there? The water is up to his loins even now. Hear his last shriek! He is floating—he is drowned. And as Noah looks from the ark he sees nothing. Nothing! It is a void profound. "Sea monsters whelp and stable in the palaces of kings." All is overthrown, covered, drowned. What hath done it? What brought the flood upon the earth? Unbelief. By faith Noah escaped from the flood. By unbelief the rest were drowned.
And, oh! do you not know that unbelief kept Moses and Aaron out of Canaan? They honored not God; they struck the rock when they ought to have spoken to it. They disbelieved: and therefore the punishment came upon them, that they should not inherit that good land, for which they had toiled and labored.
Let me take you where Moses and Aaron dwelt—to the vast and howling wilderness. We will walk about it for a time; sons of the weary foot, we will become like the wandering Bedouins, we will tread the desert for a while. There lies a carcass whitened in the sun; there another, and there another. What means these bleached bones? What are these bodies—there a man, and there a woman? What are all these? How came these corpses here? Surely some grand encampment must have been here cut off in a single night by a blast, or by bloodshed. Ah; no, no. Those bones are the bones of Israel; those skeletons are the old tribes of Jacob. They could not enter because of unbelief. They trusted not in God. Spies said they could not conquer the land. Unbelief was the cause of their death. It was not the Anakims that destroyed Israel; it was not the howling wilderness which devoured them; it was not the Jordan which proved a barrier to Canaan; neither Hivite or Jebusite slew them; it was unbelief alone which kept them out of Canaan. What a doom to be pronounced on Israel, after forty years of journeying: they could not enter because of unbelief!
Not to multiply instances, recollect Zechariah. He doubted, and the angel struck him dumb. His mouth was closed because of unbelief. But oh! if you would have the worst picture of the effects of unbelief—if you would see how God has punished it, I must take you to the siege of Jerusalem, that worst massacre which time has ever seen; when the Romans razed the walls to the ground, and put the whole of the inhabitants to the sword, or sold them as slaves in the market-place. Have you never read of the destruction of Jerusalem, by Titus? Did you never turn to the tragedy of Masada, when the Jews stabbed each other rather than fall into the hands of the Romans? Do you not know, that to this day the Jew walks through the earth a wanderer, without a home and without a land? He is cut off, as a branch is cut from a vine; and why? Because of unbelief. Each time ye see a Jew with a sad and somber countenance—each time ye mark him like a denizen of another land, treading as an exile in this our country—each time ye see him, pause and say, "Ah! it was unbelief which caused thee to murder Christ, and now it has driven thee to be a wanderer; and faith alone—faith in the crucified Nazarene—can fetch thee back to thy country, and restore it to its ancient grandeur." Unbelief, you see, has the Cain-mark upon its forehead. God hates it; God has dealt hard blows upon it: and God will ultimately crush it. Unbelief dishonors God. Every other crime touches God's territory; but unbelief aims a blow at his divinity, impeaches his veracity, denies his goodness, blasphemes his attributes, maligns his character; therefore, God of all things, hates first and chiefly, unbelief, wherever it is.
5. And now to close this point—for I have been already too long—let me remark that you will observe the heinous nature of unbelief in this—that it is the damning sin. There is one sin for which Christ never died; it is the sin against the Holy Ghost. There is one other sin for which Christ never made atonement. Mention every crime in the calendar of evil, and I will show you persons who have found forgiveness for it. But ask me whether the man who died in unbelief can be saved, and I reply there is no atonement for that man. There is an atonement made for the unbelief of a Christian, because it is temporary; but the final unbelief—the unbelief with which men die—never was atoned for. You may turn over this whole Book, and you will find that there is no atonement for the man who died in unbelief; there is no mercy for him. Had he been guilty of every other sin, if he had but believed, he would have been pardoned; but this is the damning exception—he had no faith. Devils seize him! O fiends of the pit, drag him downward to his doom! He is faithless and unbelieving, and such are the tenants for whom hell was built. It is their portion, their prison, they are the chief prisoners, the fetters are marked with their names, and for ever shall they know that, "he that believeth not shall be damned."

II. This brings us now to conclude with the PUNISHMENT.
"Thou shalt see it with thine eyes, but shalt not eat thereof." Listen unbelievers! ye have heard this morning your sin; now listen to your doom: "Ye shall see it with your eyes, but shalt not eat thereof." It is so often with God's own saints. When they are unbelieving, they see the mercy with their eyes, but do not eat it. Now, here is corn in this land of Egypt; but there are some of God's saints who come here on the Sabbath, and say, "I do not know whether the Lord will be with me or not." Some of them say, "Well, the gospel is preached, but I do not know whether it will be successful." They are always doubting and fearing. Listen to them when they get out of the chapel. "Well, did you get a good meal this morning?" "Nothing for me." Of course not. Ye could see it with your eyes, but did not eat it, because you had no faith. If you had come up with faith, you would have had a morsel. I have found Christians, who have grown so very critical, that if the whole portion of the meat they are to have, in due season, is not cut up exactly into square pieces, and put upon some choice dish of porcelain, they cannot eat it. Then they ought to go without; and they will have to go without, until they are brought to their appetites. They will have some affliction, which will act like quinine upon them: they will be made to eat by means of bitters in their mouths; they will be put in prison for a day or two until their appetite returns, and then they will be glad to eat the most ordinary food, off the most common platter, or no platter at all. But the real reason why God's people do not feed under a gospel ministry, is, because they have not faith. If you believed, if you did but hear one promise, that would be enough; if you only heard one good thing from the pulpit here would be food for your soul, for it is not the quantity we hear, but the quantity we believe, that does us good—it is that which we receive into our hearts with true and lively faith, that is our profit.
But, let me apply this chiefly to the unconverted. They often see great works of God done with their eyes, but they do not eat thereof. A crowd of people have come here this morning to see with their eyes, but I doubt whether all of them eat. Men cannot eat with their eyes, for if they could, most would be well fed. And, spiritually, persons cannot feed simply with their ears, nor simply with looking at the preacher; and so we find the majority of our congregations come just to see; "Ah, let us hear what this babbler would say, this reed shaken in the wind." But they have no faith; they come, and they see, and see, and see, and never eat. There is some one in the front there, who gets converted; and some one down below, who is called by sovereign grace; some poor sinner is weeping under a sense of his blood-guiltiness; another is crying for mercy to God: and another is saying, "Have mercy upon me, a sinner." A great work is going on in this chapel, but some of you do not know anything about it; you have no work going on in your hearts, and why? Because ye think it is impossible; ye think God is not at work. He has not promised to work for you who do not honor him. Unbelief makes you sit here in times of revival and of the outpouring of God's grace, unmoved, uncalled, unsaved.
But, sirs, the worst fulfillment of this doom is to come! Good Whitefield used sometimes to lift up both his hands and shout, as I wish I could shout, but my voice fails me. "The wrath to come! the wrath to come!" It is not the wrath now you have to fear, but the wrath to come; and there shall be a doom to come, when "ye shall see it with your eyes, but shall not eat thereof." Methinks I see the last great day. The last hour of time has struck. I heard the bell toll its death knell—time was, eternity is ushered in; the sea is boiling; the waves are lit up with supernatural splendour. I see a rainbow—a flying cloud, and on it there is a throne, and on that throne sits one like unto the Son of Man. I know him. In his hand he holds a pair of balances; just before him the books,—the book of life, the book of death, the book of remembrance. I see his splendour, and I rejoice at it; I behold his pompous appearance, and I smile with gladness that he is come to be "admired of all his saints." But there stands a throng of miserable wretches, crouching in horror to conceal themselves, and yet looking, for their eyes must look on him whom they have pierced; but when they look they cry, "Hide me from the face." What face? "Rocks, hide me from the face." What face? "The face of Jesus, the man who died, but now is come to judgment." But ye cannot be hidden from his face; ye must see it with your eyes: but ye will not sit on the right hand, dressed in robes of grandeur; and when the triumphal procession of Jesus in the clouds shall come, ye shall not march in it; ye shall see it, but ye shall not be there. Oh! methinks I see it now, the mighty Saviour in his chariot, riding on the rainbow to heaven. See how his mighty coursers make the sky rattle while he drives them up heaven's hill. A train girt in white follow behind him, and at his chariot wheels he drags the devil, death, and hell. Hark, how they clap their hands. Hark, how they shout. "Thou hast ascended up on high; thou hast led captivity captive." Hark, how they chant the solemn lay, "Hallelujah, the Lord God omnipotent reigneth." See the splendour of their appearance; mark the crown upon their brows; see their snow-white garments; mark the rapture of their countenances; hear how their song swells up to heaven while the Eternal joins therein, saying, "I will rejoice over them with joy, I will rejoice over them with singing, for I have betrothed thee unto me in everlasting lovingkindness." But where are you all the while? Ye can see them up there, but where are you? Looking at it with your eyes, but you cannot eat thereof. The marriage banquet is spread; the good old wines of eternity are broached; they sit down to the feast of the king; but there are you, miserable, and famishing, and ye cannot eat thereof. Oh! how ye wring your hands. Might ye but have one morsel from the table—might ye but be dogs beneath the table. You shall be a dog in hell, but not a dog in heaven.
But to conclude. Methinks I see thee in some place in hell, tied to a rock, the vulture of remorse gnawing thy heart; and up there is Lazarus in Abraham's bosom. You lift up your eyes and you see who it is. "That is the poor man who lay on my dunghill, and the dogs licked his sores; there he is in heaven, while I am cast down. Lazarus—yes, it is Lazarus; and I who was rich in the world of time am here in hell. Father Abraham, send Lazarus, that he may dip the tip of his finger in water, to cool my tongue." But no! it cannot be; it cannot be. And whilst you lie there, if there be one thing in hell worse than another, it will be seeing the saints in heaven. Oh, to think of seeing my mother in heaven while I am cast out! Oh, sinner, only think, to see thy brother in heaven—he who was rocked in the selfsame cradle, and played beneath the same roof-tree—yet thou art cast out. And, husband, there is thy wife in heaven, and thou art amongst the damned. And seest thou, father! thy child is before the throne; and thou! accursed of God and accursed of man, art in hell. Oh, the hell of hells will be to see our friends in heaven, and ourselves lost. I beseech you, my hearers, by the death of Christ—by his agony and bloody sweat—by his cross and passion—by all that is holy—by all that is sacred in heaven and earth—by all that is solemn in time or eternity—by all that is horrible in hell, or glorious in heaven—by that awful thought, "for ever,"—I beseech you lay these things to heart, and remember that if you are damned, it will be unbelief that damns you. If you are lost, it will be because ye believed not on Christ; and if you perish, this shall be the bitterest drop of gall—that ye did not trust in the Saviour.

Beautiful Skin

2008-10-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

Adapted from "50 Simple Ways to Pamper Yourself" by Stephanie Tourles (Storey Books, 1999).

Skin care doesn’t need to be a complex chore: It can be simple, natural and basic. Find out how to make your skin radiant, healthy, and beautiful with these mostly-free, couldn’t be simpler tried-and-true techniques.

1. Cleansing Routine: A beauty must! Cleanse your skin twice daily (only once if your skin is dry) using a mild, natural, inexpensive cleanser designed for your skin type. Add a couple of drops essential oil of rose, spearmint, or orange to your cleanser to boost its cleaning effect and aromatic quality. Cleansing your skin is especially important before going to bed, because your body excretes toxins through your skin as you sleep. If facial pores are clogged with makeup and dirt, breakouts can occur. If you perspire a lot in your line of work or exercise heavily, then rinse off and massage your body with a coarse cloth or loofah before retiring to remove salt and dead-skin buildup. Your skin needs to breathe while you sleep!

2. Exercise: Try to exercise outside, to help oxygenate your cells with fresh air and facilitate waste removal through your skin. Exercises such as walking, biking, in-line skating, and weight lifting improve cardiovascular fitness and muscular endurance, which translates into increased energy and a rosy complexion. If you live in a city, try to find a green space—a park or a greenway—in which to exercise. If city streets, with their attendant pollution, are your only outdoor option, exercising in a gym may be a better alternative.

3. Sleep, Blissful Sleep: I don’t care what else you do to your skin, if you are sleep deprived your skin will look sallow, dull, tired, and saggy; with your puffy eyes, you will resemble a frog prince or princess. And of course, your energy level will be less than desirable. Sleep: It’s the best-kept skin care secret there is!

4. Sunlight: Ten to 15 minutes of unprotected exposure to sunlight several times a week is essential to the health of your bones and skin. It helps your body absorb calcium, due to the skin’s ability to convert the sun’s rays into vitamin D. Sun exposure helps heal eczema, psoriasis, and acne, and energizes your body. Plus those warm rays just make you feel good all over. If your dermatologist advises you to avoid the sun entirely, other sources of vitamin D include egg yolks, fish liver oil, vitamin-D-supplemented soy or cow’s milk, organ meats, salmon, sardines, and herring.

5. Water: What goes in must go out, and water helps move everything along. Impurities not disposed of in a timely manner via the internal organs of elimination (such as the kidneys, liver, lungs, and large intestine) will find an alternate exit, namely your skin, sometimes referred to as the “third kidney.” Pimples and rashes may develop as your body tries to unload its wastes through your skin. Eight to 12, 8-ounce glasses of pure water a day combined with a fibrous diet will help cleanse your body of toxins and keep your colon functioning as it should. Water also keeps your skin hydrated and moisturized, so drink up!

random..

2008-10-01T18:18:00.000+08:00

Interesting finds on skincare..

2008-09-22T19:31:00.001+08:00

Acne- Happens when hair follicle gets clogged by overproduction of dead cells and finally infected by bacteria. The various forms are congested pores, whiteheads, blackheads, pimples, pustules or cysts.
· Carbon Laser Peel
· Pixel
· IPL
· Topical / Oral Medication

Acne Scars- After acne heals, skin can later be seen with a discolouration, commonly known as marks. There are mainly 2 types are scars caused by acne during the tissue repairing process; the brown pigmented ones or the raised thickened ones.
· Carbon Laser Peel
· Pixel
· IPL
· Laser

Enlarged Pores- A pore is a slightly bigger than the opening of a hair follicle on the surface of the skin. Excessively oily skin causes clogged pores and when left untreated, clogged pores get bigger. Age on the other hand plays a part as well in the enlargement of pores when collagen slowly depletes as a person ages.
· Carbon Laser Peel
· Laser
· Pixel

Oily Skin- There are different causes of oily skin, from heredity, hormones, diet to weather. Mainly, oily skin is due to an excessive production of sebum from the sebaceous glands. In general however, skin becomes drier with age.
· Carbon Laser Peel
· IPL

Pigments- When a person gets discolouration on the skin, it means there is an increased pigment production. Melanin would be responsible in the case of pigmentation on skin. It can be seen in various forms like freckles, liver spots, age spots etc.
· IPL
· Microdermabrasion
· Laser

“Loose” skin- As we age, our skin often loses elasticity and collagen. That naturally causes skin to look less firm and to some extent “loose” or “saggy”.
· Titan
· Botox

Dull Complexion- This is a common problem for many. Lack of sleep, stress and insufficient care for skin are usually the culprits. Skin looks sallow and lacks glow.
· IPL
· Laser
· Silkpeel
· Chemical Peel

Wrinkles- Try as we might but ageing is a process we cannot stop. On top of that, various damaging environmental factors cause skin to become less firm and that gradually leads to wrinkles.
· Botox
· Laser
· Fillers

Large Facial Shape- A large facial shape can be due to large jaw muscles, facial fats or bone structure. Botox can help in reducing of the size of jaw (masseter) muscles and smartlipo can reduce facial fats. · Laser Lipolysis
· Botox

Weight- Heredity, diet, lifestyle and stress can cause weight fluctuation.
· Weight Management Programme

Fun at Botanical Grds

2008-09-22T19:11:00.000+08:00

Anne & Zach

2008-09-10T13:41:00.001+08:00

UK trip

2008-09-10T13:32:00.000+08:00

Been so long since I last posted.. Here are some random photos i took while in UK..

My personal DNA?

2008-01-21T16:23:00.000+08:00

My personalDNA Report

reflections

2007-12-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

A year is almost coming to the end.. and a new beginning is knocking near..
It has been a great year I would say.
Many happenings.
I thank my God for the many AWESOME members that I lead.
The BEST leaders that stayed through the ups and downs.
The MOST WONDERFUL husband who stood with me as a friend, a lover
My greatly APPRECIATED parents (and in-laws) who are constantly giving and loving
The A & Z of my life.. you are the cutest babes in town!

I love this life. I love the relationships I have. I love being with God to touch these lives..

*freely I received, freely I give - i live to serve, to give and return what i have received

Derrick Kwan

2007-12-04T01:05:00.000+08:00

This is for you my friend..

Thank you for teaching me a lesson on Life. I will treasure it.
A seed that dies to the ground will bear much fruits.
You have brought life.. and more life to come..

Peace peace..

Common use

2007-11-21T01:13:00.001+08:00

Hmm after much thought, hubby n me have decided to spend some money on beautifying our common toilet! I supposed its money well spend as the current lookz is simply an eye-sore..

This will be the tile used for Common toilet. =)
This is the ceiling for the recess light in my mbr. =)

New updates on the house

2007-11-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

mosaic tiles in the mbr toilet! hmm think u cant see the glitter from this small pix.. hehe
My Kitchen base done. Yeah!

Things are getting exciting for my house reno. Everything is moving quickly and i've got lotsa things to buy. Super broke! BUT GOD will provide in due season! So far, i m quite happy with the progress and everything is in well order! Great work contractors! =)

tiles for my MBR toilet

2007-11-16T17:27:00.000+08:00

O i love my master BR toilet wall tiles!!! its such a beau!!!
This is actually a WRONG tile. Should be the one above instead of this. Thank God we checked!
Homo tiles laid!
hmm.. toilet with cement for the tiles to be laid.

my reno started!

2007-11-14T17:33:00.000+08:00

my mbr toilet wall hacked!!!!

Finally got my Toa Payoh house keys!

2007-10-13T01:45:00.000+08:00

MBR toilet! Dont like this color at all.. will be overlaying it!

This is the other toilet. color not too bad. Will just do light furnishing i suppose..

This is the kitchen. Had plans to do an island but think have to abort it now. its super small!!

This is the living cum BR2. Can you see the view outside? haha

This is the living room. super small!!!! argh!

But well, having complaint of its smallness, I'm excited!!! Finally a house of our own.

This is a blessed house!

Building Fund

2007-09-26T18:02:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. Arise and Build is once again around the corner. Im excited cos this year Ive seen how the Lord blesses and brought me throught so many things especially in the area of finances. Indeed one can never outgive Him. This AnB would once again be a test.. to check our hearts. To see if we will be willing. So lets step out in faith n be bold to take this test. We wil pass it well and be super duper BLESSED!

Random

2007-09-21T15:18:00.000+08:00

W253(1) Thorn amongst ROSES! ;)

Zach, Jo & Anne. Beautiful kids.

Random

2007-09-14T13:12:00.000+08:00

Well.. have been busy recently.. with the upcoming of my new house... wowheee..

and i've been soooooo blessed even before my house is ready

come to think of it, the Lord has indeed allow blessings to come chasing after me

Lord, THANKS. You have been most awesome

so far, my wedding bridal package is totally paid for

the matrimony lunch reception 95% paid for

dinner 100% paid for and honeymoon 50% paid for

Video was a blessing from Edwin n frd

Flower deco was nicely done at a hugh discount

Photography was freely volunteered by Jerad

and now renovation was given a hugh discount due to show flat

then come the blessings of $35 000 so all my furnitures n reno totally cleared

was given a free Orix sound system (heard its worth $3000) and a DVD set

ooo the blessings are countless.. even till now been more than 2mths since im married..

im still counting the blessings.. why me? i asked the Lord..

and i was reminded on my 1st Arise & Build in Hollywood.. my $8000 savings of a 16yr old gal

and i gave it all for my Lord n King.. today.. o see how He has blessed me...

and not to mentioned great relationships w my sis n bro, my parents, my new in-laws

and of course every day i'm thankful for the bestest husband one could ever ask for..

indeed no one can ever outgive the Lord... my heart is grateful, thankful.. over the past 2wks..

hmm and now.. my TP flat is coming.. gotten to know a grp of 79 TP Khakis..

haha.. they are a whole lot of fun people... got to know them thru a chatroom..

all discussing about our new place.. posting pix of their house, comparing ID prices..

this neighbourhood is so cool..

i wanna touch their lives.. be part of their world..

and be a blessing to my 79 TP Khakis.. LOL

Meyer..Corella..Vohringor..Kronotex..homogeneous tiles..leather..zen..island..red..white..

all these are randomly running through my mind..

then i m so excited to see w332 n405 w253(1&2) growing...

they are awesome..

it makes my heart so glad so warm when i see all loving Him

when i see them having fun in the things of the Lord

im visualizing new batches of ldrs rising up..

this process is undescriptable..YES YES YES

hahaha

when young men n women rises up to the call of God

the world is about to experience something brand new

the fire the passion the desire the spirit soul body all coming into one..

power exploding on the inside of me..

ooooooo

N405

2007-09-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

This is my FIRST 1st gift from my angel! Yea! Thanks!!

Pretty gals from N405!

Now you know you need to pray even when playing a game!!

Awesome CG! Rockz on babes! This Cg is so cool.

2007-09-03T23:14:00.000+08:00

My Three Theology Champions!

You three are great!

I am so proud of you!

Time to Change the World!

Pretty women walking down the street..

Mighty man n woman of valor!

Spiritual Disciplines

2007-08-15T15:31:00.001+08:00

Prayer

WOG

Bible Study

Solitude

Fasting

Thanksgiving

Repentance. Forgiveness. Confession

Thank You Lord. I'm grateful

2007-08-15T14:13:00.000+08:00

God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me o’er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace
On this altar I’ve written my life
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

God of my forever
And forever I’m with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King

God of my all I’ve surrendered
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown
Nothing matters when You’re here with me
In the end just to hear You say “Well done”
Bowing before Your throne

Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way

Donut Friend

2007-08-08T14:03:00.000+08:00

Hi Donut Friend,

Just wanna say thanks for the regular supply of the nice donuts! I knew u took time to queue! Thanks so much. Its a gesture we seldom remember to be gracious about but here it is, THANKS FRD! I appreciated the Donuts' Love from you! Yea!!!

Honeymoon shots..

2007-07-30T14:26:00.000+08:00

This is my hubby!! He is so cool! =)

This is INSIDE our villa. o its so cool to have bubbles in the jakuzi..

O.. this is like a movie shots eh.. LOL

Super clear waters.. hope u can see the fishes. haha..

My Wedding Video Clip by Mimostudio

2007-07-12T12:38:00.001+08:00

Check This Out!!!

Thanks to Edwin n team..

http://www.brightcove.com/title.jsp?title=1114234555

Wooooooo What a blissful life I've got!!!

2007-07-11T15:09:00.000+08:00

NOW i'm finally married!!!

Life is GREAT!!! Couldn't be any better.

my in-law loves me. make breakfast for me!

the maid help to do my laundry

the dog- Dale welcomes me home with wagging tail

and most importantly, my hubby who is so patient, so adorable and so huggable :)

I am totally in love with married life.

Cant wait to go on my honeymoon and chill out in the hot sun!?!? lol

COunting Down

2007-06-18T01:11:00.000+08:00

Well, I'm counting down to my Big Day..

Many asked if I'm prepared,

If I'm anxious;

If I'm excited and all...

well seriously...

I DONT KNOW

haha... i'm sorry for such lousy answers..

I guess I'm feeling alot.. mix feelings really

There seems so much to be done;

yet nothing much else to do..

Indeed, be anxious in nothing

but in everything by prayer & supplication,

giving Thanks to our Lord.

THANK YOU MY LORD.

Hide and Seek

2007-06-15T13:45:00.000+08:00

Hi friend

are we playing Hide & Seek as it seems to me?

and who is hiding

who's seeking?

Beats me!!!

I had a good time ytd

in His presence as usual

only He can make me feel like this

Its seems so long

and yet so recent

THANKS

is the word i can only utter at the end of the day

Aim for your harbor

2007-06-12T01:13:00.000+08:00

Our plans miscarry because they have no aim.

When a man does not know what harbor he is making for,

no wind is the right wind.

~ Seneca

It's one thing to let the wind take you where it may,

to "go with the flow," to be a rootless leaf at the mercy of the breeze.

It's quite another to make a plan and stick to it.

Believe in yourself enough to trust that you can make a decision and carry it through.

And once you make a decision,

believe that it's the right one and proceed on that basis,

at least until something convinces you that you need to change your path.

Aim for your harbor.

Mad House

2007-06-07T13:58:00.000+08:00

Wedding is drawing super close and its time to clean the house.
The mad house cos it is super packed with unnecessary but yet beautiful things
Full of dust on many white elephants
I scrub I clean I dust away..

At the end of the day
Are these really so important that I must bring with me
Indeed all is vanity; for none can last forever

To my New Temporary Place I come
With hope With anticipation With joy..

Freewill

2007-05-30T12:20:00.000+08:00

you have not disappointed me

you have not disappointed Him

maybe you are disappointed with yourself

I hope in Christ

Christ has no need that He hope in anyone

for He is the Christ

the Son of the Living God

who do you have hope in

what is it you have hope for

where does this hope bring you to

Find Christ and you find hope

Lose Christ and you lose hope

is it you I am angry with

is it me that I am angry with

is it He I am angry with

with none I say

for He has showed me the heart of man

for He has showed me that none is indispensible

for He has showed me that it is all a matter of Choice

Choose a willing heart

Choose a good attitude

Choose to draw close

Choose to learn

Choose to be thankful

Choose to remember the 5 smooth stones

For the Lord will prove Himself faithful and true

to a man/ a woman who chooses to walk with Him

to a man/ a woman who chooses to stay in Him

to a man/ a woman who chooses to love Him

Will you love Him today

more than riches in this world

more than the comfort of your life

more than the way you think

more than the bf/ the gf

more than yourself

is it yourself that you love the most

is it your style that people must understand

is it your thinking that others must figure out

Am I not the Lord's

Am I not my own

Why then do I even have a choice

It was bcos my Lord loves me

It was bcos He chooses to give me a freewill

FREEWILL

Therefore I will choose to love Him

Therefore I will choose to let go

Therefore I will choose to walk His way and not my way

for His love toward me surpasses all understanding

for this is the least I can do for Him

I choose to do His will

No? to what? I say: In Him, YES & AMEN

2007-05-30T02:19:00.002+08:00

Did i misread your message or did you misread my message

i guess it does not matter anymore

did God gave up hope on us

did God gave up hope on those who do not believe in Him

i choose to guess He did not

He may be silent

but silence is not denial

Instead He is waiting

waiting for them to make a choice to believe in Him

waiting for them to make a choice to come close

have you given up hope on me

have you given up hope on the Lord

have i (been seen as) given up hope on you

have i (been seen as) letting you go

maybe indeed you have misread

maybe indeed it was not so well said

well whatever it be

I bear forth my heart

truly only You understand

and truly only You knows

I am sorry friend I failed

I am sorry Lord I failed

I will arise and I will stand

I will hope and I will believe

my heart will live on...

goodbye my friend...

2007-05-29T01:53:00.000+08:00

my dear friend...
you said you are hurt by what happened
you said you are disappointed at what happened
you said you will leave because of what happened
what can i say to you my dearest friend...
do i not hurt as much as you do
do i not know that you fret
do i not wet my pillows or isit only u who cry in the darkest night
do i not know you are called by God for a reason, a purpose
yet i can do nothing..
cos you have choosen to hang your head so low
cos you have choosen to run away instead of coming close
cos you have choosen to do it your way rather than His ways

am i a lousy leader i ask
am i a lousy friend i ask
and well do u even consider how i feel for you
maybe u will never know
maybe u will never experience
maybe u will never come close to umderstand
how i feel
what i think
what i experience

when i heard the intend of your heart
when i read the blog you wrote
when i receive the email that you send
its seems eternity stood still
you seem to be gone from my life
how can i hold you back
i know i cant
only you can make a choice yourself

is it only when i fellowship with you
is it only when i call you
is it only when we share the same dreams
am i considered your friend

Please dont go my dearest friend
if only you can hear the cry of my heart within
you are so close but yet so far
i know if i touch you
i would end up hurting you
because love demands holiness
because love demands a setting apart
because love demands willingness

forgive me if i seem so distant
forgive me if i seem so cold
i just hope you will one day understand
why i did what i had to do

Lord help me to let go
Give me my Manasseh
I forget those hurts those pains
I forgive you my dearest friend

I know you need to live your life
I know you have your dreams to pursue
I know you need to be with him/her
I know you have your choice your will
I know the price to let go is too great for you
BUT I believe
one day you will come back
one day you will be strong
one day you will understand
one day you will live out your destiny!!!

and meanwhile I can only say
GOODBYE MY FRIEND

A willing heart

2007-05-25T16:29:00.000+08:00

Energy is high when our will is engaged.
Without enthusiasm, strength for the task will flag.
When kids 'have to do' what they don't want to do,

shoulders sag and knuckles drag.
When they're doing what they want to do... streaked lightning!

Creativity, positivity and fun, follow the willing heart.
Burnout follows those who live a life they don't want to live.
Getting willing is a decision I make.
I want to do this!

ooooooo RA

2007-05-24T12:10:00.001+08:00

mommy

2007-05-24T11:16:00.000+08:00

to my mommy...

thanks for spending time with me. you are awesome. i love private moments with you. you give all the invaluable treasures to my thirsty soul. now time is ticking for me to leave home soon. i m anxious. i m excited yet surrounded with lots of comprehension. in fact i m afraid. i really do not know what to expect coming up but grace grace for this season.. i hope all things go on smoothly..

My life story

2007-05-19T01:27:00.000+08:00

Well, took the painting finals for emerge today.. theme on My Life Story..

I came up with this theme and now i wonder how would i paint my own life story. Its interesting to see the various art pieces and how they illustrate their thoughts with differnet colors, shapes and designs.

i m impressed.

Well done!!

Birthday

2007-05-12T12:17:00.000+08:00

TO all who took time and effort to celebrate my birthday..

THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH. I totally enjoyed it and greatly appreciated it. Thank God for friends like you. :)

I'm 30 now... yoooowhooooo....... this year is going to be my best year yet.

Laziness

2007-05-03T16:13:00.000+08:00

Quote - 'The desire of the lazy man kills him, for his hands refuse to labour. - Prov 21:25

The heart of the lazy will be ruled by frustration and anger unless effort matches desire.

The thrill of the hunt and the kill is all the lazy person wants.

To gut the fish, skin the bear or butcher the beast is too much like hard work.

The lazy man lives in an unfinished world - Nothing is completed.

The excitement of starting a thing soon fades to hard work that the lazy person does not want to do.

a choice

2007-05-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

we make a choice to be righteous

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